Meet Jerry MacGregor!
I was born into a bitter, out of control, dysfunctional family.
The youngest of 6, I was tortured in my circumstance. I never understood the harshness and hatred so prominent around me. From before I could walk, I was afraid for my life. I was beaten, abused and mistreated in ways no one should ever know. Life in intolerable circumstances distorts ones perspective.
My home was a place to survive, endure and escape from. Low self-esteem and depression was my life. Battling death-wish behavior, I jeopardized my life and freedom on many occasions. As a young man, I was an angry high school dropout with no dreams and no direction. I survived and escaped, but for what? I got my GED and went on to graduate college. At last I could feel proud. I found great value in my achievements as an accomplished engineer and businessman.
I ventured out of my lonely existence and met the love of my life, Veda. From rags to riches, I became a successful man with a loving family. I appeared normal and happy.
My family went on without me since I was absorbed in my work. To be vulnerable requires connecting to your heart. My past hurts caused me to live in my head. I struggled to be honest about what motivated me. As my family was dying, so was my career. I stopped to see what mattered to me. I kept my family and began to embrace the love around me.
After profound soul searching, I see myself as a worthy, lovable man of God. My wounded spirit knows the pain people inflict on each other is caused by past hurts. We are all broken, and we are hurting each other. To stop, we need to see what has hurt us. When we stop being hurt by the past, we move forward healing our spirit.
